Sometimes I just get mad.
I met my friend S on the trying to conceive message board I used to be apart of. She and her husband started trying to get pregnant around the same time that Craig and I did, so we shared that struggle for quite some time. They’ve been diagnosed with “unexplained infertility” and are now going through some medical procedures to try and reach their dream of having a baby. This was their first month doing the IUI and I was REALLY hoping for a BFP for her this cycle! Her temps are steady and her body seems to have responded to everything well. It’s still a bit early, but so far, nothing. And that upsets me.
It upsets me that teenage girls can get pregnant and abort a baby without a second thought, but those who really want a child have to struggle to see that dream become a reality. I dealt with this a lot when we were trying to get pregnant. It took us 10 months to conceive Nathan. I cried myself to sleep many nights wondering if I would ever become a mother. I know that God has a plan and I know that the struggles Craig and I went through made us stronger and made us love and cherish this baby so much more…but I don’t want anyone else to have to go through those emotions! I want S to get her positive test and have that baby that she deserves! It’s been over a year for them. I just can’t comprehend having to wait that long for something you already love so much. And it makes me sad that they’re still waiting.
And so all I can do is pray. S, I pray for you and your future baby every day. I know that one day you will be a great mother, and I’m praying that day comes very soon!